I wish I could say that the disease issues our herd has
experienced over the last three years have passed. That we have come out stronger, better, and
unscathed. However, the reality is that
we are in the worst position we have been in over our 60 year history. We have exhausted every option we can think
of to regain our pig health, and nothing is working. Even the strategies that have helped feel
like a band-aid, masking another, bigger problem by throwing money at it. Once one health challenge seems to ease up,
another problem emerges. It is hard to
meet with our vets and advisors, them showing a mild indifference to our
situation, as we are working tirelessly to save our pigs, bleeding every day
for the last 1000.
I wish we had found the cure, the answer, maybe made better
decisions, but I honestly don’t know what we would’ve done differently with the
information we had at the time. Now, I
am a lot less trusting of “experts.” I’m
weary of easy fixes, and the traditional way of doing things. Our farm is different, our life is different,
and our pigs our different. My values
don’t always line up with those driving our industry, but I do love being on
the farm. Weighing our options, we decided we need
to start over; selling every last pig, and then buying new breeding stock. Maybe we can do something to salvage what we
have, but we are getting to the point where we just can’t keep waiting for
things to right. We need to take action.
Big changes hurt, but I don’t want to be the generation that
spoils my family legacy, as so often happens in multi-generational businesses,
where things get complacent. I may go
down, but it won’t be without a fight. These changes aren’t easy, and there are
many places where we will make mistakes.
Our notions of who we are as a company are going to shift. The solid foundation we have is going to
move. We will lose some people- people I
have known my whole life. That is
probably the hardest part for me, but it is another piece of our upheaval.
While change is hard, it gives me the possibility of going
back to “normal.” Where every phone call
isn’t the next disaster, when my weekend travels are the only thing that keeps
me sane. When I can look at my work and again be proud of what I have
accomplished, or actually make progress and provide better care to our
animals. I look forward to these moments
now, as I am sitting nearly paralyzed with fear. In these times, I can see my support system-
it’s not as big as I thought it was, but I can make do with what I have.
My lack of writing over the last year is due to dealing with
the challenges that I have experienced on the farm. I still journal, and I have taken up a
side-gig writing for Silent Sports, which gives me a creative outlet. However, I want to write here, and share my
story- the good, and the bad. I can’t
say what my life will look like in another year, but I am excited to see how
things unfold.
I hope everyone is doing well. I have some news to share today....In the next week I am moving to NOLA and hoping this new journey will put me back into the attitude that change is good. So much to do and not enough time to do it. I am so thankful for all of the wonderful people in my life (including Pedro Jerome) a loan lender that support me at all times I am excited and also worried my life has been such a downer for so long that getting out of it has been hard but I do really feel that this change is going to be the best thing I need right now and I have hopes that all good things do come to those that wait.
ReplyDeleteI'm thanking a loan lender who helped me with a loan of 1 millions dollars to boost up my business once again at the rate of 2% annual return which is so wonderful and I would like anyone stuck in financial situation to reach out on Pedro the loan lender on pedroloanss@gmail.com for a loan assistance.
So please keep me in your thoughts and thanks to this blog I can at least keep in contact with all of you.